I know... Yet I don't...

I know I'm not happy... yet I don't feel sad...
I know I'm not good... yet I don't feel bad...
I know I'm not god... yet I don't feel like a devil...
I know I'm not alone... yet I don't feel company...
I know I'm not unwanted... yet I don't feel my worth...
I know I'm not a winner... yet I don't feel like a looser...
I know I've not reached my destiny... yet I don't feel the need to walk...
I know I'm not content... yet I don't want anything more...
I know I have to do something... yet I don't know what I can do...

I know it isn't normal having such feelings... yet I don't find them inappropriate...

I know these feelings won't vanish... yet I don't feel they'd last long...

However I know with great confidence...
I know... yet I don't...

Sunshine thought

I woke up rubbing my eyes... wondering whats the time...
The chirping birds and cooling breeze said, "It's morning divine"...
I asked the trees, "Why you smile?", They said, "Its the sunshine.."
I thought of you and it made me smile... I realized you are mine...

The Race, The Lady and The Victory

It was a Car race and I was going fine,

Met a lady in red who told me she was mine.

I made her my navigator and we were doing great,

Till time drew us apart and people called it fate.

The Car broke down and so did my heart

I am never gonna win again as life doesn't restart.

I took time to realize I could still fix the Car

Afterall it had brought me so far

I entered the race all geared up

Smiled at my competitors who were gettin all smeared up

Its really fun burning gas and changing gears

Then I saw the Lady in red return with my fears

"What are you doing here? I want you to go."

"There is something, I think you should know"

"Look, I'm gonna win even without a navigator"

"Actually I found someone, and we are together"

I didn't know what to say

or may be I should just pray

Her red dress never looked so scary

and then I remembered Today 'was' our Anniversary

Hoping she would take him to victory,

I wished her good luck.

I promised myself, won't give up so easy,

will keep trying my Luck.

It's still a Car race and I will do fine,

I'll meet a lady, not in red but surely divine.

Be it the lady or the car race,

The story's wont be over, till Victory is Mine.